Wednesday, May 31, 2006

yea!!! finally changed my blogskin... and got my self a tagboard... yipees!!! lolx... and did a few lame comments to test it out... but dang... this new blogskin can't seem to be able to read chinese... haiZz... oh well... can't have the best of both worlds i guess... went to saw x-men3 again 2day... still liked it... din go 2 sch 2day... i think i'm cursed with the devil's luck you know... i'm pretty sure i set an alarm for 7... but my alarm totally didn't ring once... not that i heard... and i missed a very impt maths tutorial today... i'm so dead... my friend said i'm digging my own grave... well i think i already have one leg in it... i'm so screwed... i got to buck up... i can't fail... or else i'm screwed... ppl think i'm missing or not doing stuff on purpose... well hey i'm trying here... or maybe i just have to try harder... more discipline... more self-control... i wanna do more than pass i wanna do well... don't want to let my father down... these sch fees are putting lots of pressure on him... and i've gotta try to find a proper part-time job soon... so i can lighten my father's load... but no luck at it so far... haiZz... well... i've got to go do my project le... dang... i don't think i'll get any proper sleep this week...

posted at 1:39 AM... catcha later^^

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Monday, May 29, 2006

28th may... sun...

back... been kinda busy with sch recently... projects, assignments and tests... coming soon le... then its holiday... yipee!!! not really in the mood to blog... but had a few things to say after reading my friend's blog... well.. 1 of my friends mentioned tat when a person has a blog that person should be ready to show it.. if that person doesn't want to show then wats the point of having 1... ya.. true.. so it kinda got me thinking... so wad shld i do wif my blog... i'm blogging.. but i'm afraid to show it to anyone... cuz i'm afraid... in my blog i say lots of stuff... stuff on how i really feel... i'm afraid of losing ppl if they see this stuff... especially her... havn't had a chat wif her for quite some time le... hope i can find some... well... i've been thinking maybe i'm not ready yet... for a relationship... at least tats how i feel... i want to juz wait... instead of finding... i wanna juz go wif the flow... cuz my friend once said this "if its meant to be, it will be... if its not, no matter how hard you try it will still be not..." well i kinda understand now... and maybe its the best for me right... but tat doesn't mean i will stop fighting... i might have fate now... but maybe i'm juz lacking destiny... but when it comes i'll be sure to fight hard... recently... i'm kinda having an identity crisis again... i'm starting to lose myself again... i don't know who i am... cuz 1 minute i'm like a bad guy and all... the other i'm like Mr. nice guy and stuff... well... same thing time will tell... no use thinking abt it cuz i've more impt stuff to do at the moment... like sch stuffs.... my friends and teachers always said the only thing keeping from accomplishing things is my laziness... thats my biggest enemy.. and probably my toughest 1... anyways gtg le... hav to go to sch at 8 to do my assignment tmr...

(watched 'Forest Gump' recently liked this quote...)

*~ LiFe... ~*

LiFe iS LiKe a bOx oF cHoCoLaTeS...
yOu'Ll nEvEr wHaTcHa gOnNa gEt...

posted at 1:23 AM... catcha later^^

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Monday, May 15, 2006

hahaZ... havn't post for a very long time le... well... been lazy recently... heheZ... i've been coming home late then slping late... chasing naruto all over again recently... hahaZ... but i took time to look at alot of others people's blog recently... and i notice something... compared to theirs... my blog is really very simple... all my friend's blog are like so cool... where as mine is so simple... haiZz... well... but thats i how i like things things right to be simple... i also realised some stuff... my thoughts and way of thinking are just really very simple minded at times compare to my friend's... they really think about alot of stuff and really complicated one's too sometimes... so deep that i can't comprehend what they are saying... i don't know if i haved said this before... but sometimes... i don't know why people blog... some people say blogging is for self-pleasure then do they post up their blog's URL to show people... maybe its kinda people's different way of expressing themselves... but i do find it good at least i get to know more about my friends through some of their blog... well... as for i'm not sure why i started blogging... well... i've not told anyone my URL... and i doubt anyone has read my blog given not many people know that i have a blog... got sick 2 days ago... still am now... sore throat, headache, coughing... haiZz... still have school tmr... wonder if i should get a LOA... =P... oh ya... which reminds me... went out with jx they all on Vesak day...too bad min hao couldn't come(he was sick)... we went to queenways with eng chuan as he wanted to buy a pair of new shoes... so he could wear to school and play Bball with... hahaZ... we kinda spent about 3 or was it 4 hours finding his ideal pair of shoes... but at the end of the day... still couldn't find it... so he settled for something less then what he had hoped for... then we went to marina south to had steamboat... wEeEe... wished i was enthuastic that day... well... i fell sick that day actually... 2 hours before we were supposed to meet... but i took some panadol and a short nap then still went out with them... i know i was sick... and should be resting... but it was me who suggested the outing... and kinda felt guilty if i canceled it or didn't turn up... so sickly still went out... and the usually talkative me.. was quiet the whole day... didn't reallt talk much... and at marina south didn't really eat much too... had no appetite to eat... and the same for this few days... hahaZ... anyways good for me... cause i wanted to go on a diet... but dunno why been feeling kinda moody recently... sometimes i get angry at people for no reason...(but i don't say it out...) i juz don't uderstand why... maybe i am short tempered???
havn't really had a good chat with her recently... i've been busy with school... heard from her that she had settled the problems le... hahaZ... good for them... wonder what kind of problems was it??? maybe i'll ask next time...
a reason why i don't want to post my blog is i'm afraid she would see it... although i never mention her name here... but i'm still afraid that she would still find out eventually from reading...
well... got to go le... still have school tomorrow...

*~ who's matters??? ~*

'you',' yours', 'he', 'she', 'him', 'her', 'his', 'hers', 'they', 'them', 'theirs'...
none of them matters...
what matters is what 'I' think and 'MY' thoughts...
cause this story is 'MINE'...
all that matters is 'ME'...
they same goes for everyone else...

Live Your Own Story... Your Own Dreams... Not Others...

posted at 1:14 AM... catcha later^^

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Friday, May 05, 2006

4th may...

i wanted to post on monday... but while i was typing halfway... my comp hang... i feel so damned... u know sometimes... i feel so left out of everythin...maybe cuz i've been focusing too much on my work... well... i've kinda quitted... now i'm wanna redeem myself... i wanna get any friends i used to have back... i went back to union alot has changed the people... there are new people... and some that i used to know... i feel like i dunno them anymore... everyone is changing... izzit because of union?
plus i've havn't play basketball with jx they for a very long time... i have alot of catching up to do with them... hahaZ... now that i'm free i gonna get my life back... but i still wanna find a part-time job cause i think my family needs it... so if anyone has job to intro show me... although i doubt anyone is gonna read my blog... (none of my friends know about this blog)... but i learnt alot of stuff from work... i've learnt to look at stuff from different angle now... everyone has problems... different problems... and different ways of handling them... someone alot of people juz think i'm crapping at times... no one believes me when having problems... cuz i'm always laughing... and they say i'm never serious... well... i can get serious but i still laugh cause its my way of handling stress... to laugh it out... they do say "laughter is the best medicine" thats why i'm always laughing... give me any problem no matter how serious i'm still able to smile... but i do think os solutions to solve... okay... i might look like a happy-go-lucky guy... but thats juz on the surface... my friends always ask me "how come a happy-go-lucky guy like you has so much white hair???" well... who ever said a happy-go-lucky guy won't have any problems... i've been missing lessons and sch due to my work... all my friends always think i'm working for money to buy stuff... and when i tell them that its to support myself and my family... they think i'm crapping... i know i crap sometimes... but isn't it obvious when i'm telling the truth... well... if u wanna think that i'm crapping... fine... but i will still hold my stand... cuz i wanna be a responsible person... i wanna lessen my father's burden... but i guess i hav to get a lower paying job... but i will nvr forget the things i learnt at K box... it was valuable... i think better get to sleep...
still have lessons at 8 tmr... from 2day will be the start of my 'Road To Redemption'... i will redeem myself...

*~熟得生巧 ~* (recently really like this song by JJ...)

醒着像睡着躺着像思考
晨昏颠倒
敢情太单调竟然是烦恼
如何是好
也许来阵风雨花谢满地
黯然神伤的困扰
可以刺激那颗
浑浑噩噩失去了烈火
激情的大脑吹风就感冒
淋雨就发烧有爱就好
我不再逃空虚日子
这一路都在熬
也许爱情就是熟能生巧
你绝对想不到我多渴望
让生活染上一些颜料
是红橙黄或蓝靛紫都好
一圈一圈的围绕
终于能自在的坦承说爱你
火一点就燃烧
怎么刺激那颗

posted at 12:48 AM... catcha later^^

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